April 21 2014, 2am
...2 days ago
I’m really struggling to be happy
Like I am for real happiness just doesn’t come to me much anymore. I don’t smile, I don’t laugh, I just retain this neutral or bored expression throughout the day. I’m not depressed, I’m just bland. I’m unemotional. I’m uninterested. I lack positive emotions, but I lack extremely negative ones. I want to be happy, but I’m not. I’m not sad, but I almost want to be just so I know that I am feeling something.